This is Margie and this is my World

Thursday, June 15, 2017

My new school: University of the East-Caloocan

It's my third day of being a Red Warrior 😄😄
At first, of course I was so nervous because everything will be new to me like I'm literally back to zero but thank God He introduced someone to me that will help me cope up in this school 😊 I can say that he is my special friend. And I really have nothing to say about his kindness, his attitude, his being a gentleman at all times, uggh he's so cute in that way! I am so happy whenever he's with me. And I am so comfortable too. I really hope he will never forget me and never ignore me. Actually he has a lot of friends. Different courses, different sections, guys and girls and he's very friendly. He always smiles at anybody he knew 😍 which I also admire about him. And he even introduced me whenever we stop by and see his friends and I really appreciated it! And now went home from school together but I really hope if it's okay to do it everyday? Even In spite of our different schedule? Because he's taking Mechanical engineering and I am an IT student.

UE College of Engineering Library

Multimedia area (part of library)

Shelves

The field at noon ❤ (sooo hot)

TYK Building (which has the rest of courses)

Gymnasium

At Giligan's resto. And yes I was with him 😄

The field at night.

That two college buildings (so cold and relaxing ❤)

At multimedia area, watching movie. I have hours of vacant so I mostly spend my time here.

LCT library. I think this is for High school but we managed to enter 😄😄

I has a high ceiling and it has second floor

Did I mention this library is sooo chilling?

Now I realized I'm not forever lonely. I'm not forever depressed and down. And God has many plans for me. This is a good start. There are times that I'm alone because i don't have many friends yet and that friend of mine still in his class but I'm fine with it. I really appreciate every second he spent with me 😄

Sunday, March 19, 2017

Unexpected ending.

Feelings.

Sad to say, my boyfriend and I aren't together anymore. It's been more than three months since we broke up. But I still see him everyday in school because he's my classmate. We only have a week left before vacation so I won't be able to see him again. I think it is better for us. We never talk for more than three months and we never got a formal break up. We just never talked. That's all. And I think it is not good to just keep it that way. Who wants that kind of relationship right?

I admit I have done so many mistakes. I hurt him. But it doesn't change the fact that he hurt me more and I wish I could still express how I feel. We made lots of promises. We shared many memories. But we didn't keep our love stronger. We let the fire die. We let our hearts drift apart without even knowing if it still beats as one. And as a partner, I have a responsibility to do, and that is to love him unconditionally. And by saying unconditionally, I would've love him like I'm gonna lose him, love him without doubts and full of trust. I should've make him happier when he was by my side. I should've respect his feelings. I should've understand him more, and I should've love him absolutely. I wasted all the chances that I had because I never think that we will separate our own ways. I failed as a partner. I failed as a companion. The only thing that I regret is I didn't showed enough love for him. I didn't make him feel loved and happy enough in order for him to stay longer with me. I wasted all of it. I know my love is not enough. That's why I failed.

We fight often and sometimes I don't like the way he treated me. I never felt that he is proud to have me. He always make fun of me in front of our friends. He didn't even introduce me to his parents. He didn't respect me. He did stupid decisions and he was not thinking enough of the consequences of what if something bad happened. I don't know if he cared about my feelings but if he did, I bet everything have changed. He was always "pasaway" and he said things to me which it breaks my heart. "masyado nang below the belt ang mga sinasabi niya sakin." When he did something wrong, I forgive him the very next day or after few hours. But if I did something wrong, yeah he forgive me but he will never forget it and he will bring it back if we fight again. I know I'm a moody person. Sometimes I'm so cheerful then after few minutes I'm irritated at everything and I think that's the reason why he gave up on me. because I am understandable. I thought he will love everything about me. He will love me for who I am but he did not.

Thank you Joemarie. Salamat sa lahat ng natutunan ko sayo. Kaso di mo tinapos ng maayos ang relasyon natin. Sana naman may chance pa tayo para magpaalam sa isat isa ng maayos kung hindi na magwowork talaga. Humihingi ako ng tawad sa lahat. Nakikita kong happy ka na. Sana maging happy ka na lagi at makita mo na ang totoong magpapahalaga sayo. Goodluck sa future! I hope by ending this relationship, it will give a good and better memories ahead. I hope it will make us a better person. And to know who we are.